The only exception.

<3 Luc Besson.

I always believed that to love others perfectly, you had to love yourself first.
For how can you love others, if you cannot even love yourself?
Sometimes, it's really hard to love yourself.
A secret.
Sometimes, I even hate me.

Just this morning, I prayed really hard for someone. My prayers were instantly answered. Instantly.

He was always teaching me something about love.
Reminding me His love for us was always the greatest.

Reminded of something I came across recently. There's no such thing as conditional love. Which is what we need to learn.

It was either unconditional love or no love at all.
That's what true love is.


His love is unconditional.

Firstly, happy birthday to my mum! =D

Totally had awesome fun yesterday with Da, Sw, and Bo at Marina Barrage. Played Seven-Level-Pig, Aideedai (after such a long time too!), and doing forfeits. Everything was just so funny. Best part was when the water sprinklers suddenly turned on around 00.15! and we were just picnicing somewhere in the middle of the green field. Haha. How lucky we weren't sitting ON one of the sprinklers.

On to more serious stuff. Saw Fl's blog post. I was touched by it. Totally inspired and motivated me to finally do something about my dysfunctional relationships with my parents. Something I always had known I had to do something about, but just didn't. To cherish and treasure them now before it's too late.

Me now? I'm just living by His Word. To honor my parents.
It's a small step, but it's a start.
And I'm believing with faith that one day my family, relatives, everyone I care and love so much will be saved.



Happy 51th Birthday, Mum. Love u.

=)

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

=)

But to each one of us was the grace given according to the measure of the gift of Christ. Ephesians 4:7

This year's Christmas.

It's not like any other. Not like the previous Christmases I had so far. Where it was just another seemingly ordinary day, with no meaning, no significance. Where it passed me by without me realizing it.

This year, I'm celebrating more than Christmas. I'm celebrating and commemorating the day our Lord was born.

Finally finished the entire four seasons of Prison Break.

Gosh. The ending. So sad. And this amazing sad song fits it perfectly like a jigsaw piece.

Ohhh, oooh, yeah

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I Love You" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Ohh now I've found a real love,
you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
(maybe next year)
I'll give it to someone,
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone,
I'll give it to someone special

Stockholm kind of bores me.
Though I probably wouldn't be happier anywhere else.
For all the water in Seine, and all neon signs in Time Square or all ecstasy of Berlin wouldn't make me appreciate mondays.
But this particular monday...
This weekend, at a party, I met a wonderful person.
I can't stop thinking about her.
I met her today as well.
Her presence is so paralyzing.
I just wanted to hide.
But I was discovered.
She approached me and said: "Hello?"
"Hey!"
"I had fun this weekend."
"Yeah!"
"Too bad you had to leave so early."
"I didn't really know anybody."
"Maybe you want to hang out this weekend?"
"Yeah! Sure!"
"I call you."
"Sure!"

Matthew 18:3 :"and said, "Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 18.

<3.

And in the end, yb hasnt change one bit.
Im so disappointed.

Really felt like cussing in response just this moment ago.
But i think ive got the grace and capacity right now not to.
Thank God.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

I need to instill this in my mind, carve it upon my brain.

God, make me remember this always.

Skipping lecture today. Headache, flu and sore throat just got worse.

I'm glad I went to PM yesterday (tho only for session 1.), when I was already contemplating whether to go home and rest for the day even during morning lecture.

(Sometimes I wonder whether it's a blessing or a curse to be this curious.)
I've so many questions about everything! It's like being a newborn babe again. Haha. Starting from scratch.


I can't wait for BS to start.

But if heaven never were promised to me,
even God's promise to live eternally.
It's been worth just having the Lord in my life,
living in a world of darkness,
He brought me the light.

Amen.

Oh Valencia
With your blood still warm on the ground
Valencia
And I swear to the stars
I'll burn this whole city down

All I heard was a shout
Of your brother calling me out
And you ran like a fool to my side

Well the shot, it hit hard
And your frame went limp in my arms
And an oath of love was your dying cry

So wait for the stone on your window, your window
Wait by the car and we'll, go we'll go

God, I actually like how the Russian langauge sounds. Ravishing.

Matthew 9:29:
Then He touched their eyes, saying," According to your faith let it be to you."

And it reminded me what Ja preached a few days back.
"The likelihood of your lifelong dream coming true corresponds directly to the strength of your faith."

For all things are possible, if we have the faith to just believe.
It's something all of us already have in us. All of us have faith, the capacity to believe.
It's the direction we place it in that matters.
And the amount of faith.


Talked with Da on the way home.
The camp made us learn so much more about ourselves. Our weaknesses, our strengths. And with His grace, what we needed to change within ourselves.

Tears just flowed freely today. So touched by Him.
Renewed faith. Stronger than ever.



O Father, grant us the courage and the wisdom to change. Allow us to raise our performance, that we may close the gap. For we believe in You and our dreams with undying faith.
O Father, what did books mean?

Before the earth
Before all days You knew me
Formed in Your image
Made in Your likeness You love me

The light of Your word
The truth of Your promise guides me
The power of Your mercy
The love of Your grace deep inside of me

It's the depths of Your love
Moving in the depths of me


I believe
In the power of Your name
I believe
In the promise of faith
I believe
In the love of a God
Jesus my Saviour
I believe, I believe


Speak to this mountain
To move into the ocean
With Your authority given to me
No matter what happens
Here I am standing
On the hope of Your word
Promised to me


This song never fails to make me wanna cry. How beautiful.

...and we all need simple reminders, from time to time, to remind us that He's always there for us.

His mysterious ways.
O Lord!
Nothing short of miraculous!
I stand in awe.

PSALM 26: 1-2:
1 Vindicate me, O LORD,
For I have walked in my integrity.
I have also trusted in the LORD;
I shall not slip.
2 Examine me, O LORD, and prove me;
Try my mind and my heart.

For what did we have to prove, really?
To whom?
To what ends?
For i learned that in everything we do, we really had to prove only to Him.
And Him alone.
Noone but Him.
God.
Jesus.
Holy Spirit.
You.


Really humbled today. Awesome CG.

It's the depths of Your love
Moving in the depths of me

I believe
In the power of Your name
I believe
In the promise of faith
I believe
In the love of a God
Jesus my Saviour
I believe, I believe

omg. i just stumbled upon an awesome website.

CreativeUniverse

And it's the most beautiful langauge of all.

Tal Bachman- Shes so high
Rhett Miller- Come around
Andy Stochansky- Stutter
O.A.R.- Shattered
Low Shoulder- Through the trees
Mew- Comforting sounds

Because nothing really came back again that day. Although everything's changed.
Because I've learnt to completely let go.
Because I learnt that letting go isn't giving in or giving up. In any way.
Because letting go was never about winning or losing. It never was.
Because it's about cherishing the memories. To overcome and move on.
Because it's about being thankful for all that once made us laugh, smile, and cry.
Because it's about accepting change, and having the strength to keep moving.
Because it's about opening a new door we never thought existed. And walk a new path.
Because that's why I let you go.

No. That's why I let us go. Free.
Because it made us both much better persons.


(Because although you made me lose all faith in true love, a small part of me still wants to believe true, unconditional love exists. Somewhere.)

(Pardon this emo post. I promise it won't happen again.)

(In the skytrain from Terminal 2 to Terminal 3.)

Overhead announcement: And for your own safety, please be reminded to hold on to the railings.

*D and K grabs onto J at the same time.

._. TOTALLY FUNNY. HAHAHA.

James 1:2-4 :"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing."

And I experienced his miracles once again today.

For I believe, this is a test of my faith and my patience.
For now, I pray, persevere and wait.

anyway my blog's up!
*like finally

Dannon says:
*oooh
*wif like nice posts?
*its iwalkagain izit?

kennn: says:
*WAT THE
*U FORGOT AGAIN!
*I WALK AGAIN!
*LOL
*andhewalked

Dannon says:
*its not?
*LOL

kennn: says:
*LOL
*wat the !

Dannon says:
*i noe got some walking involved

fail d. fail.

aight. i admit. im worse. i totally forgot his blog link. hahaha.

Not really. but still. Finally got the blog up and running. Was real busy. Haha. Hope C likes the card! =D Big thanks to sm for helping me solve the mystery of the blogskin that just refused to work. Haha.

The honour's all yours. I'm gonna leave the post there just because.

That issue has been really troubling me for the past few days. I wasn't really myself. Smiling, but deep in thoughts. Laughing, albeit a choking one.

Wish I was there tomorrow.

Corinthians 12:9 :"And He said to me," My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.""

For we are weak, and He is strong.
O Father, show me the way. Tell me what I should do. I'm in a dilemma. Open my eyes, that i may see. Open my mouth, that I may praise Your name and shout with joy. Open my arms, that I may fill Your presence in my life. O Father, help me, help all of us step out in unwavering faith and put us in our rightful places.

When we pine for higher ceilings
And bourgeois happy feelings